The Day Before My Uncle's Wedding

So a lot has happened since the last time I've posted anything. I've finished the first year of my A Levels. Fingers crossed I get decent grades. Come 15/08 I'll probably be dead. But we'll see.

Anyway today is the day before my uncles wedding. We don't have weddings often. The last one I can remember was ten years ago. So its kinda a big deal when weddings happen.
Also I'm his wife's bridesmaid. I didn't really want to be a bridesmaid but my cousin was really excited about it. She now regrets it. There's just so much to do and tbh I am really busy. Plus I hate the dress. It's a coral pink and I'm too fat for it.
I wish I'd stayed a normal guest and got to wear my own dress. This dress is way too long to wear in this weather. I guess the only good thing about it is I won't need to do my legs. Haha.
Anyway I better go. I'll update later!

Silver Linings

I'm not listening to any music right now because guess what. I LOST ITUNES BECAUSE MY LAPTOP IS FRIED.

But everything's okay, because here's some great news - I have the hard drive and I can now transfer everything that is saved on the hard drive onto another computer!! Oh my life I can't even thank the people who were clever enough to invent such a thing. 

So yeah. I'm just going to spend half my life actually transferring everything from the hard drive onto another laptop. I might die before everything's been transferred...but I guess that's okay. I'm just happy.

I think it's enough about my laptop for now. 

I'm just having a technology-hates-me phase. But that can just suck itself because CATCHING FIRE TRAILER IS OUT AND I'M JUST LIKE HYPING ABOUT IT ALL DAY. I'm sure I've watched it over like 5348073209547206 times now. I can just die happy and then come back to life for when the actual movie comes out.

Freaking Hunger Games taking over my life. I'd punch it in its non-existent face if it didn't change my life/ it isn't so awesome/ I didn't love it to a billion pieces.

Wow. I'm just emotional right now, okay? 

R.I.P Motherboard.

So my laptop's motherboard is completely and utterly fried. However they have managed to retrieve my hard drive, which I understand is not a hard thing to do. Unfortunately, they say that they cannot retrieve the data because I've password protected it. Incidentally, I find this to be utter bullshit because I have the internet which doesn't state anything about passwords, or maybe I just ignored it.

All I can do now is wait. I don't really know what I am waiting for. I think my dad is going to get this fixed somehow. I'll probably get a new laptop which sucks because apart from the dead motherboard and part where the DVDs go in has broken off and the fact that I have spilled nail polish and glue over the keys multiple times and the broken keys - the laptop overall is completely fine.

Plus, I have essays due in after the easter and it really sucks. I have not wanted to do my English work so badly before. I just want my laptop to work, for all of my documents to be fine so I can actually assess them and get good grades for them. I have never ever in my life wanted to do work so badly. Not ever.

I guess you just don't know what you have until it's gone - which is so crappy.

I have so many unfinished stories on that computer. I have so many childhood memories. I can't believe I can't get to them whenever I feel like it. It's stupid because even though I don't use my laptop that often amymore, I hate the idea that now it's gone it's not there for when I do want to use it. I hate that I don't have an option of whether I can use it anymore - I just can't use it because it doesn't work anymore.

Just in case there is anyone reading this thinking how the motherboard is fried - well it's because it over heated or there's dust in the fans or both. Maybe you should invest in some kind of cooler. It just sucks that the motherboard died. My brother does the right thing. Like whenever he feels his laptop is heating up he just goes downstairs with it. The living room is just so much cooler. I was always just so lazy.

I've had this laptop for almost 4 years. I don't know if I can just go back to using a desktop again because before I had the laptop I used the family computer and it was not a good experience. The computer was just so slow. Plus it's like downstairs and I like my room. I really hope I get a new laptop.

Doesn't this kind of thing just make you realise how much people rely on technology nowadays? Even now I'm sitting here on my phone typing this out. I can still do things without my laptop - it's just limited.

Well I'll just keep on complaining about these minor things in life because I live in a world where teenagers cry over not having an iPhone or that fancy car for their 16th birthday. Maybe I'll blog about that later.

Okay. Bye.

My Laptop Died.

NOT EVEN 4 YEARS.

My laptop has died. It was working fine and then I put it to sleep and came back and its not working anymore. It's so upsetting.

All of my work. All of my pictures. All of my stories - gone.

I've written over 500 stories I'm sure over 5+ years. How can they all be gone now? I have to find a way to get the harddrive out so I can still get all my things back.

ALL OF MY SONGS. ALL THOSE HOURS OF DOWNLOADING. ALL OF MY VIDEOS. ALL THOSE HOURS OF EDITING. ALL OF MY GAMES. OH SIMS 3.

I can't even.

What is life?????

Hey.

Currently listening to Coldplay!

Wow. It's almost been two months since I last posted. I don't know why I haven't been posting lately. I guess not much has gone on. Life is getting suckier but I'll get past it. 

I gave up meat for Lent - even though I'm not religious. I don't know why I do religious things even though I'm not religious. I'm just strange like that. So anyway, I've managed to be vegetarian for a long time now - I cannot wait until I get to eat meat again. I miss chicken - Nando's!!! 

It's really late now so I'll blog some more soon. 

P.S DOCTOR WHO IS BACK TOMORROW.

GO GREASE LIGHTNING

Why this car is automatic.
Me and a friend like to sing Grease songs every once in a while. It's weird but fun at the same time. We get weird looks from other people...
My friend does the dance to it and its a hilarious. I can't sing to save my life but oh wells....
We sing Summer Lovin' too - she's always the boy part and I'm the girl part.
Haha that's all I've got for today...
We were singing at the train station. The other friends tried to get away from us.

"It'll Grow Back."

Have you ever wanted to do something, knowing it'll be a bad idea, convinced yourself it won't be, then did it anyway and realised it really was a bad idea?

Yeah, well it happens to me when I'm cutting my own hair.

Like the other night, I cut my fringe and it's all fine and pretty - I went to school with my hair all straightened and the fringe was perfect.

Then this morning I found myself at the sink, looking into the mirror, thinking I should just cut it again. NO, NEVER DO THAT HOLLY. YOU IDIOT.

So I cut it again and all I can say is: It'll grow back...

Disney.

Hey everyone!

If anyone is interested in art or has a DeviantArt account, check out my account - link is on the side! My art isn't the best but I enjoy it... and I take A Level Art (don't ask why...)

I just spent 5 hours painting this:

So yeah that's dedication. It's twenty to 2 in the morning now... I'm so tired. So I guess I'll sleep now. Night!

YES.

I RESTORED MY DELETED POSTS.

Oh my God. Okay, so basically, this morning around 7 a.m ish I woke up and I checked Blogger and then I accidentally deleted like three of my posts from the blog. And I couldn't restore them straight away because I  have school (I know, it sucks). And I was so annoyed with it all and I got all panicky. 

If any one of you has deleted your posts by accident recently (and haven't deleted your history lately) then here's how I restored my posts. Well when I say 'restore' I meant, copy and paste and made a new post... So you'll lose all your comments on your post (I know, it really does suck).

Anyway, just now, I went through my internet history (that I delete like every so often) and I went through all of the Blogger post web history thingymabobs (sorry, I am terrible with technical computer terms...) and it takes me to the screen that you wrote your post in the first place. So just copy and paste the text and then make a new post.

I hope that makes sense?

Sorry if it doesn't help very much. 

But yeah, that's how I 'restored' my deleted posts (thank God!) and thanks for reading!

I am listening to Disney songs. At the moment, a Hercules song. 

Please follow my blog!

Oh no.

I just deleted most of the posts on this blog.

Omg.

Eurgh this freaking sucks.

This is so upsetting.

Sometimes I Just Hate Myself.

Hello depressing post.

Do you ever just feel like you just hate everything about yourself??

I'm just feeling kind of depressed right now and it sucks. It really sucks. I guess sometimes I have these moments where I just throw my phone onto my bed, like as far away from myself as possible because I keep on checking on it but nothing ever happens anymore.

Eurgh, sometimes I'm just so stupid. I think I am kind of stupid and I nerd to sort my life out. My social skills need refining. Like I need to just calm myself down for a moment and think about what I'm going to do about this guy I like...

ANYWAY. I'm going to stop here because I'm sure you guys don't want to read about my slight depression and whining etc etc

Haha. Okay bye.

Drunk People

I went to a friend's party recently and people got drunk.
I personally don't think I was drunk but I was a bit tipsy (update: okay maybe I was a bit drunk... I realised I didn't remember half the things my friends told me so...). I was wearing 4.5 inch heels so it was really hard for me to stand.

Drunk people are so difficult. I'm usually the semi sober one so I spend the majority of the night worrying about my friends, trying to prevent them from doing anything they'll regret. It's not that fun actually.

Anyway, I try to stay away from drunk people because the tend to throw up and that is really gross. My friend actually threw up on another friend once and I had to clean my friend up.

There are so many types of drunks. (Personally naming each one)
Lightweights - drunk after a shot.
Emotional Drunks - they start crying or they try and tell their life story and baucally get emotional.
Party Animals - they just let go and have fun
Honest Drunks - they just speak their minds (I think I'm this one)
Crazy Drunks: they go crazy and step on your feet and stuff...
Never drunk: THEY DRINK LIKE CRAZY AND STILL KNOW WHAT THEYTE DOING

Erm that's all I can think of at the moment. If you can think of anymore drunks then comment below!

SNOW HAS EATEN ENGLAND.

Erm yeah I don't know about the title of this entry.

Haha, anyway, it's been snowing in England - it's AWESOME.

It's absolutely freezing but it's okay because that's how snow is formed... 

Our school, which never - I repeat never - closes decided to close today at around 12 pm and that was good! I went home and slept. And that is basically my day... 

I hope that none of you guys have had any accidents, because while the snow is awesome, it can be really dangerous! It gets all slushy and slippery and that kind of sucks... But mainly the roads. Anyone driving on the roads should be extra careful. Car accidents are so horrible.

Anyway, if you're at home, get cosy in fluffy socks and pyjamas and drink some hot chocolate or something because that's what snow days are all about - well for me personally!

Okay, I should stop babbling now!  

I am currently listening to Coldplay's Yellow! 

Hugs

I like hugs - I started to hug people a lot around when I was 13 years old. I think that was when I finally settled down properly in the new school and was comfortable with my friends.

Hugs are fascinating. They bring two people closer together and give you that contact and intimacy between two people. When someone is upset and there are no words to comfort them, a hug is all that is needed. I think that's rather magical.

Hugs are useful in many circumstances. Today I realised I used hugs to avoid awkwardness...but I also realised that it would give off the wrong impression and idea... My two friends had an awkward encounter at a party and they didn't really know what to do about it. I, as the friend, is reminded of this awkwardness and when the two friends are in my presence I just talk... I just hug the boy friend that I'm not as close to just to avoid looking at his face.

I do that when I receive presents. I hug the friend to avoid having to put on a face to show I loved it even when I didn't...

But that's just me. I wonder if other people use hugs for various other reasons other than intimacy?

Hugs are just comforting (: some people don't actually know how to hug - last year I tried teaching one of my friends how to hug...

Anyway that's it on hugs for now.

Hello 2013

I'm hoping that you'd be a much better year than 2012 - which kind of sucked. A lot of things happened in 2012. Not all of it sucked, but there was enough sucky things that happened to make it a sucky year. 

Right now, I'm sitting in my room, in my pyjamas on the 3rd of January. I haven't met up with any of my school friends over the last week or so. I'm scared that this will affect my social skills when I return to school.

^That sort of stuff usually goes into my personal blog, but unfortunately I have no filter so I'm just mixing it up. I don't actually know why I have this blog. I don't know what the specific function for it actually is. 

Also, I'm kind of dictating these paragraphs in an American accent. Yeah. I don't know what on earth I'm doing with my life. 

I find it fun to read my blog entries - they make me laugh. They make me remember certain things that happened in my life and they remind me that they're not that bad now as they seemed back then. Like, when you're in the moment, you're always thinking: "Oh my God, this is so bad. It's going to ruin my life and my future and everything." But a few months later, and you happen to look back on it, you realise that it hadn't affected your life badly or that much. 

So, I'm not trying to be all wise or whatever. But I guess reading about other people's lives can help you with yours. I think people should document their lives, privately or publicly. Not Facebook-style documentaries - because let's face it, statuses about you dropping by KFC for the fifth time today is not going to help you later in life... Unless you bring that issue of you eating loads of junk food up to your doctor... Because how can you not be obese by now?

Anyway, if you're reading this - thank you - and I hope you remember that there are much more important things in life than just worrying about the future.

See ya.